Happy New Year! We're going to Disneyland!!!

I feel like one of those old Superbowl commercials...."Kristine, you just found out you have cancer, what are you going to do now?" ha ha ha

It's been crazy with doctor's appointments & tests & blood draws & scans and since Gracie's birthday is on the 13th...yep, we're going to Disneyland. My "baby" is going to be THREE!!! I have a couple friends from my Disneyland days who still work there, plus Coray's uncle Joe has been the drummer in the Disneyland band since like they opened (just KIDDING uncle Joe!) so we have "connections" to get us signed in. Plus Uncle Joe & Aunt Verna let us know we could stay with them so no hotel needed! Yay! Practically free Disneyland trip! We're going to go down the 11th, go to the Parks the 12th & 13th and come home the 14th. It'll be a quick trip but I think we so need it before my surgery, which WAS scheduled on the 15th but got moved (due to a scheduling debacle) to the 21st. I'm pretty sure I've decided to do the double mastectomy because I really don't want to have to go through this EVER again if I can at all avoid it. My insurance company (the jerks) denied the PET scan my Oncologist ordered because you have to be stage 2 or higher, per their "requirements", to qualify for one. Instead I have to have a CT scan (next Monday) & a Bone scan (next Tuesday). And I'm sure two scans are MUCH cheaper than one (insert sarcasm). I don't know, maybe they are but it's just ONE more test I have to have before surgery. Oh well, not like I have anything better to do & what's one more stick with a needle? (insert more sarcasm)

I ended up getting an infection & had to go to the doctor. He told me they were going to give me an antibiotic shot & they asked me if I was ok with needles. I think they were a little worried for a second when I started to laugh.

Everyone keeps asking me how I feel & for the record.... I feel fine! I guess that's one of the crazy things about cancer. I'm not nervous...yet. I know as it gets closer I will be. Focusing on other things, like Disneyland, is helping. Recovery is going to be difficult & chemo is not going to be a picnic. I was sitting outside with a couple of my friends the other day & our kids were all playing. It was probably in the upper 50's & I was getting chilly. I just kept thinking about how cold my ears were going to get without hair! I definitely need to get some hats & scarves & such. I should start really looking into that!