Friday was long. It didn't help that I woke up at 4:00 am & couldn't get back to sleep. We got there at 8:00 & I didn't actually start the chemo until 11:00. Chemo itself was shorter than I thought it was going to be though....only about 4.5 - 5 hours. They did give me a sedative so I napped, read, watched a DVD. My friend Amber came by & brought me lunch so I had some company for a bit too. I was the youngest one there. Almost everyone else definitely qualified for AARP! That was kind of weird, though everyone was nice. Saturday morning I had to go back & get an injection (Neulasta). Since the chemo kills your white blood cells (the ones that fight infection), among other things, the Saturdays after my "big chemo" days I have to have a shot to stimulate blood cell production.
This is not going to be easy. The fatigue is crazy. Going upstairs was getting me winded. Not a lot of nausea, so that's good I think. It didn't hit me until early afternoon on Saturday & then I just got really tired. I think I have a little bit of a cold too. I was congested a bit before Friday so I don't think that has helped. I'm going to try to go to the gym this morning with Gracie & walk on the treadmill. Exercise is definitely encouraged. I need to get back into our normal routine because I think that will help. I am noticing that some things are tasting different. Not necessarily bad but just different. I was looking at an online discussion board at one the official breast cancer websites and there were ladies discussing having breast cancer more than one time. I can't imagine that. More than anything THAT is what scares me the most. What if it comes back? What if I beat this thing & 10 years from now it's back? I know I can't think that way but it's hard to be positive & upbeat when you're feeling lousy. I just want it to go away. I just want my life back. I can deal with the "modifications" to my body, just give me back my health. We have decided that we are staying here until I'm done with treatment. Pharmacy school can wait. Coray is also going to look into going to school to be a Physician's Assistant. There is a school here in Henderson that he is going to look into and also two in Arizona. Although, as much as we want to get back to Arizona with the housing market what it is right now we should stay put for the time being. Only time will tell.
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I know its a cliche, but Hang in there sugar. We all love you and are praying for the best.
Have fun at the gym.
(((((hugs))))
Just letting you know I'm thinking about you...{{{{{HUGS}}}}...Cindy
I have been studying up on all this stuff you are going through. And I am overwhelmed! But if anyone can make it through with a sense of humor and such a positive attitude, it is you!! Don't forget it is alright to have bad days once in a while, go ahead and blow that steam! Scream into your pillow if you want to, I do it all the time and it makes me feel great! Love you lots and know that you are way more brave than the rest of us!
Love, Kathi
Thank you for letting us know how you are feeling and how your body is taking everything. We think about you all the time. Love you and miss you guys! Give the girls love from aunt Spring and baby Paige! xoxo
You are totally entitled to having a bad day, week, or month. Remember-even Rocky Balboa got his butt kicked a little. You are a champ, and you are all in our prayers.
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