It's been awhile....

Yes, yes I know....it's been awhile since I've posted. And I've heard it from a couple people so I guess I'll update a little. Truth is it's been busy and crazy and frustrating. Some days I don't feel like ever posting and others I feel like I have too many pictures to go through. Time, it's a lot about time and I don't seem to have much of it lately. One of the main reasons is that our home desktop computer (where the camera software is) got a MAJOR virus and it's being returned to us via the mail as I type. All I can say is thank goodness for friends who are computer geniuses and generous enough to ship a HUGE, pre-paid box to get our computer half way across the country to repair it...at no cost to us! Wendy if I haven't already mentioned it a bazillion times, I LOVE YOU!!!

SOOOO....I'm d.o.n.e with big chemo and starting to feel much better. The only lingering side effect is my eyes that are still tearing all the time. I need to get back to the Opthamologist but again, I just haven't had time. We've been doing a lot of swimming and the girls LOVE it. They are both in swim lessons for about six weeks this summer and it has been great. The only thing is now that it's over 100 degrees outside every day I'm ROASTING while I wait for them. UGH! I was so tempted to jump in the pool during their lesson yesterday, clothes and all!

Emma is officially a Kindergarten graduate. She had her "graduation" last Friday and it was too dang cute. I have a ton of pictures to go through (another big, time consuming task) and will do that once the home computer is back. One of the biggest, baddest, most frustrating pieces of news is that it looks like I will be losing my job. Farmers Insurance bought our company awhile back and I found out recently they do not "do" part time, work at home positions. So sometime around September 1st we will find out the gruesome details. I've never been unemployed and it's a scary prospect right now. You can bet we're going to be looking into every type of government assistance we can until we can get Coray into school and then live off student loans. I can't believe I just said that. lol We have some challenging times ahead but for some odd reason I'm not TOO worried about it. I just have to have faith that we're doing all we can and that we'll be blessed for it.

The other big thing in our lives right now is that I started Radiation last week. I now can say I have a real, permanent and forever tattoo! Five of them to be exact. They are only little black dots but yep, they are permanent. Done with tattoo ink and a needle and all. And you'd think I'd be used to needles by now but if anything, I hate them even more. Anyway, the first day of Radiation was awful. For some reason I was more nervous the first day of my Radiation therapy than I was on my first day of Chemo! The two techs there were NOT nice at all and gave me attitude. They had to draw these "fields" all over me to line up where the Radiation would go, it took about 45 mintues. Like I said, I was nervous and trying to take a deep breath now and then when they stopped marking on me. They'd go out and look at their computer or take a picture, come back in and make some more marks. At one point when they were out of the room I took a deep breath, one of the techs came back in and told me not to do that because I'd just moved the field. Another time (remember my eyes are still watering) I had a tear dripping down my face, which is very annoying. I blotted it with a tissue....one of them told me "don't move". Other than snapping commands at me they barely said anything. I had no idea what they were doing or how long it was going to take. By the time it was over, and I looked like one of the girls had colored all over my chest with a magic marker, I was so MAD I was in tears. The lead tech Margaret, who was NOT in the room but who I had dealt with up to that point, came to walk me back to the little changing room area. As we were walking out I asked her if I'd have to be marked up like that every day, she said no but one of the other techs heard her say that and commented that maybe they would because there was a "lot of movement". I pretty much snapped at that point and said "yeah, because I have to breath" in my best snotty attitude. I told Margaret I was not going to be treated like that again and if I was the next day we were going to have a problem. She is a TOTAL sweetheart and apologized that I had been treated that way and has been in the room every day since. And I will say the other two have been much nicer and I haven't had to put them in their place.....but I won't hesitate to do so if they ever do that to me again.

As you can see by my calendar, Radiation is every day through the third week in August. Between that, swimming lessons and trying to work every day with the girls being home and it being too hot to play outside in the backyard....I'm a little frazzled to say the least! So many things going on it's really just been nuts. I promise (mostly myself) that I will get pictures up once we get our computer back. There are some good ones of swimming fun and Emma's graduation. So there's the long and short and good and bad and craziness that we've been up to recently. Life is never dull!