The way to be

This post started out with one thought I had & somehow became completely different as I started writing. I'm not sure what that was all about but maybe it's just something I needed to think about.

It's SO easy to get overwhelmed by everything that goes "wrong" in life. All the little things that don't go your way. Everything that comes at the wrong time. Life sometimes happens when you don't want it to, it just does, it's inevitable. We all have to do things we don't necessarily want to do. It's part of being a responsible adult, right? In my albeit biased experience I think women in particular have that "it's got to get done" gene. For example, I have a love/hate relationship with my job. I hate working but I love working at home....most of the time, except when the girls are calling my name every five minutes while I'm in the middle of a file. I love working in sweats....most of the time, except when I look up, it's noon, I still haven't taken a shower, the girls have been watching TV all morning & are still asking for breakfast. It's one of those things that I really wish I didn't HAVE to do, but at the same time I don't MIND doing. Kind of like dishes, laundry, mopping, vacuuming, dusting....I mean who LIKES to do chores? And if any one of you says "I do"....you are welcome to come to our house & enjoy yourself all you want! It makes me wish I were a kid again, when my biggest worry was whether or not I'd eaten enough dinner so that I could go out & play. Instead I see all the things I cannot do or do not get to or am not doing well enough. I feel inadequate in so many ways. I feel like the girls watch too much TV, that I yell at them all the time, that our house is a mess constantly, that I'm never going to loose that last 10 lbs I want to, that I'm always one step behind when I USED to be so on top of things. It gets so easy see the negative. To see everyone else in their "perfect" little lives and compare yourself. To see what everyone else has that you don't. So in the midst of the insanity that ensues on a daily basis it's sometimes hard to focus on the things I should. But don't we all have something that the other might want? Who am I to complain? And yet, still we do. While I was thinking about all of this I remembered a talk that was given by Pres. Hinckley a few years ago & it's a good reminder to me of the way we should really all be:

1. Be grateful.
2. Be smart.
3. Be clean.
4. Be true.
5. Be humble.
6. Be prayerful.

I can't control everything but I can control my reactions to any given situation. Coray and I were having a discussion once and he was talking about being proactive instead of reactive. Sometimes that can be easier said than done. I'm working on it.